Why is everything making me pissed?  

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Haixyo.. These few days everything like making me angry.. Is it me? or them?

The first thing that made me angry is a person.. Dowan say who but some of you already know who lar.. Anyway though i'm reali pissed at you and also quite sad lar.. But in my heart I already 算了. Cos like I angry also NO USE!!

Anyway the 2nd thing that made me pissed this week is that someone in the music school i'm teaching at is "stealing" my songs!!!!!! Urgh.. By "stealing" I mean that person actually went to learn all the songs that I am learning!
He/She must have heard the songs I was practicing every Sat on the Piano and in a few weeks I hear him/her playing the exact songs!! Angry! Go find ur own songs la COPY CAT!!
Angry cos I know I'm not good enuf and when I hear someone learning the same song I will have this urge to make sure I'm better but at the same time I know that I only can improve when I'm enjoying playing the piano and not when I push myself just to be better than someone else.. CHIM huh!? lol..

Another thing that made me angry is Dear... Everyweek we meet like once maximum? Damn xin ku can.. And we seldom talk on phone and message each other liao.. I know la.. Our relationship quite steady but hor.. Sometimes reali too steady liao.. Buay tahan.. Too steady = Boring??? I know u got exams and we both final year liao very hard to cope plus I got to work.. Xin ku also bo bian.. No chance to meet really just have to 忍耐. This kinda feeling suX!!! Just have to dong one more sem.. Hopefully can see u more often liao!

And lastly my Mom.. she is always pissing me off and my sis.. Too many stuff to mention that she did to make me angry! Every month she would ask the same qns:
"How much are u earning ah?"
If she really meant well she would have asked:
"Are you earning enough?"
Sometimes I have to force myself to think she meant well but it all comes to nothing.

Because.... She expects me to pay my own phone bills,
school expenses and other daily stuff including contact lens bla bla.. Basically I work for my own survival..
I also dowan to take money from her.. Who doesnt hate to take money from their parents right? Anyway she also dont want me to take money from her why shld I say that I dont have enuf money? And so whats the point of her asking?
I mean in the end she would end up nagging say I shld be more thrifty and not always taking money from her... ZzzzZ...
And so I say: "I am earning enough, thanks"
And so she expects me to pay for everything.
Wow.. THanks aH!
&#$?!*&@?&*@#$!&%

Looking on the BRIGHT side...
Helped my Sis pick out clothes and accessories for her prom on the 13th Nov.. LOL!! So fun shopping when u have an aim! Like going on a shopping mission....

Velvet 'V' black dress with diamond studs and lacy bottom, Matching set of earrings, necklace, bracelet and ring all bling bling de.. Cos must be Glam ma!! Gliterry gold-coloured clutch and pale gold coloured heels with 1 diamond stud to match the clutch.. Wah.. Pretty!!

Honoured that she asked me to do her Hair, Nails and Make-up!! Haha! Although stil dunno how to set up her hair.. Curly or straight? Tied or let down? Anyway I would have offered to do them cos go out do expensive leh!! Must 为钱着想.. Haha..

Kk.. Must get back to reports and assignments! zZzZ

 

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What Your Cute Monster Says About You



You are a giving, open, loving person. You truly want the world to be a better place.

You appreciate what you have in life. You are very content.



Your inner demon is sensitivity. You are very sensitive, and your sensitivity can be a double edged sword.

People think you're cute because you're generous. You are easy to love - it's part of your charm.

61 things most girls dont know  

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1.Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you’re not “popular” if you’ve slept with more than 6 guys..you’re a xhore!)

2.”Hey, are you busy?” or “Are you doing something?” ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3.Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4.Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they’re gonna say so there aren’t awkward pauses, but once he’s on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5.Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

6.Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7.Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they’re goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8.A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9.Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they’re still loved.

10.Don’t talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11.Guys get jealous easily.

12.Guys are more emotional than they’d like people to think.

13.Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…nevermind..” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he’ll assume he did something wrong and he’ll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14.Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15.Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16.Girls are guys’ weaknesses.

17.Guys are very open about themselves.

18.It’s good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don’t let him wait too long.

19.Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20.If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

21.A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22.Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23.Guys will brag about anything.

24.Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

25.No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

26.Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

27.Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

28.Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn’t notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

29.Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy’s confused, then we’re all confused.

30.Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

31.Try to be as straightforward as possible.

32.If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

33.If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he’s probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

34.When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

35.When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me.”

36.Guys don’t really have final decisions.

37.If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn’t happen that often, so when it does, you know something’s up.

38.If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you’re with your boyfriend, he’s probably jealous and likes you.

39.When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don’t say you aren’t. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don’t want you to disagree with them.

40.When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he’s definitely thinking something.

41.Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42.Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

43.A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44.Don’t be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45.Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46.Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47.Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48.If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don’t say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren’t interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

49.Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

50.A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl’s mind for a day.

51.No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He’s just too stubborn to admit it.

52.Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of us.

53.We don’t like girls who are too skinny.

54.We love it when girls talk about their boobs.

55.Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy …like whether it’s a one time deal or not ….

56.Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unnoticeable tell them about yours…

57.When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

58.Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

59.Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts…

60.Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn’t intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that…after you let him know a couple times.

61.When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

Recipe of Chocolate / Oreo Chesecake  

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This is a Non-Bake Cheesecake Recipe so u dont have to bake it in the oven!!

Upon many requests, I have decided to post my recipe here:

Ingredients and Steps: (or in Bio we say Materials and Methods... LOL)
For the Crust:
1. Biscuits of your choice
(I use digestive biscuits. You can try out others like soda biscuits, those plain non-flavour type of biscuits.)
--> Crush them into bits and pieces in a small bag or in a bowl (small bag is easier)
How much to crush depends on your tin and how high u want it to be.

2. Butter
--> Has to be melted. Add to your bowl of crushed biscuits and mix until they become meshy and soft. I used 1/3 block of butter to 10 digestive biscuits.

3. Sugar
--> Add 1 and 1/2 table spoon of sugar to the mixture (If u are using 10 digestive biscuits).

4 Vanilla Essence
--> Add 1 table spoon to mixture and stir well.

Once u have mixed the 4 ingredients together, get a baking tin and place a layer of baking paper! This is so that the cake dun get stuck onto the tin.

Press down the mixture. (Important) Make it higher at the sides so its can hold the filling better. Put the whole tin into the freezer while u prepare the filling!

For the Filing:
1. Cream Cheese
--> Singapore only sells the Philadelphia brand so i used that.

2. Condense Milk
--> Add 1/3 can of condense milk (380g) to 1 tub of cream cheese (250g). Mix.
(I used 2 tubs of creamcheese)

3. Oreo / Chocolate Chip cookies
--> Crush any kind of chocolate cookies or oreo cookies in a bag or bowl. Amount to add is at your own preference. (I added 5-6 cookies; not to much so u wont cover the cheesecake flavour)

4. Vanilla Essence
--> Just 3 drops will do!

Take out ur crust from freezer and pour ur oreo / chocolate chesecake mixture into the tin. Spread it out of course and place it in the freezer!!

It takes really fast to set- in 2-3 hours can eat already!

It doesnt matter if u leave it in the freezer overnight, however if u want to serve or eat it please place the cake in the fridge for awhile.. cos u wont want to eat frozen cheesecake! lol..

Any questions pls tag!! Thx.

P.s. This is the recipe for which I think is the best in terms of ingredient amount to add.

Happy Birthday Dear!!  

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Yay.. Today is Dear's bday... But sadly I cant celebrate dearie's birthday today cos school end late and he muz study so we decided to celebrate it on.... last SUN!


Lol... Yep so actually we already celebrated la.. On an earlier day.. kk feel naggy repeating that.. So anyway nth much la.. Just go his house with my handmade chocolate cheesecake. (Not the oreo one but recipe abt the same la for those who tried it.. haha!!) The crust I made it softer this time (khai tuck said too hard) and i used more cream cheese (khai tuck also said too little cream cheese) lol...


We also got new couple watch cos the old one spoil liao.. Haha.. Our celebration veri simple hor.. Not much things going on de.. But ok la.. no money splurge on good food and fancy gifts.. As long we are happy.. anything goes.. =)

Happy 23rd birthday dear!!

NEOPRINT DAY!  

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=) Princess (=

Went out with Juan today!! lol... Its been so long since we met.. haha.. I got exam she got project.. Final year already.. Sch work is neverrr ending!!

We dunno whr to go that day so we just decided to go Orchard walk and walk.... We walk from orchard to Cine to eat Subway cos we damn long nv eat subway alr... Then we went to take neoprints!!
After that we just talk and talk about alot of stuff.. Too much to catch up alr.. haha.. Duno wad to do so we just walked and see stuff talk stuff.. Thought of going to visit Khai Tuck at work cos he shld be working that night.... Msg him but no reply and i forgot whr was his work place.. haha.. So while waiting for his reply we went to raffles place, near fullerton there walk... Heard the damn noisy F1 cars but couldnt see anything!! So noisy and bright lights were everywhere..

Walked until legs so tired.. Anyway that day was just practice round so also nth much to see la...
(Need console self..lol)

Finally kt replied~! Parkmall Dome la... Stupid me.. forgot whr! So we made our way there.. But he already finished work.. ZZzzZ..

Juan muz jiayou jiayou for ur competition and final year projects ok!!! Hope u win!! Win le muz treat me lunch!! hehe

Emily Bear playing Solfeggietto.. Pro!!  

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Emily Bear is onli 6 yrs old!! And she can play C.P.E.
Bach's Solfeggietto at such a speed!

A child prodigy who can not onli play pro but can also 
compose!!

6 more months and counting....  

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=) Princess (=

Counting to wad? Feb 25th.. the date tentatively set for my jaw op..

Nope.. this is not a joke..
I think that week is exam week i not veri sure.. but it is possible to postpone it..

MAJOR op... anyway basically its just a fairly common op done by many pple to cut the jaw and push it back in.. So i can talk properly.. Not that i dont.. i have lived all my life with this stupid jaw.. Mayb when it is in the right position i would be talking NOT properly! lol.. 

So the surgeon says it takes about 6 weeks for the bone to recover and heal back.. They will put like metal screws inside to hold the bones together and wires to tie up my lower and upper jaw together so that i doesnt like drop off when i talk? haha.. i know it sound funny.. I dunno how to really explain lar... so basically my jaw would be clenched and I cant talk... NOR EAT!!! The doctor says i have to be fed with a syringe.. Liquid food for 2 months plus!! Suck and push the damn syringe into the side of my mouth for breakfast, for lunch, for dinner... MY GAWD!

Yep.. apparently i have to donate blood for myself for the op as well but i'm below 45KG so i'm not heavy enuf to do so.. I can try to put on 2KG till the op.. Have to be physically and mentally fit.. Definitely lose weight with all the liquid diet..

ALL FOR THE SAKE OF BEAUTY.. I'm so scared of pain.. I dont even dare to think of the things i have to go through.. Cant talk!! Cant eat proper food.. I cant believe i'm actually going to go thru with this.. Just cant believe it..

Imagine pple actually go for plastic surgery.. i think they are reali veri brave.. To be able to willingly sacrifice just to be prettier.. And i'm like already so scared when this is just corrective surgery.. zzZZ.. hopefully they'll give me a strong dose of pain killers and of cos.. lots of "sleeping pills" from dear.. HEHE.. 

At least i know all this will be over in the near future and ppl wont laugh at me when i cant say "SLOTH"!! haha.. U guys are such asses.. haha..

Kena Complain at Work!  

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=) Princess (=


The pain of work.. doesnt matter wad kind.. as long as you are working for someone.. u will sure kena sucky things...

Yep.. i did... and on my 1st week of the job.. shall not curse online so shall keep it clean..

Anyway.. some of you already know the story..

For those of u who doesnt I shall retell the story here:

As a not so experienced teacher, I can onli teach beginner students... Most students I teach are small kids, and they are definitely harder to teach then school kids.. (small kids as in 3-6 years old). So this new student i have that i teach on Sundays is 4 years old, has never been exposed to any kinda musical knowledge whatsoever.

His lesson starts at 9 (my first lesson) and I came 5 mins earlier.. However, the person-in-charge was sick and she came half an hour late... Cant blame her ma.. anyway.. I was given no materials and a student who has never had any musical exposure. I was quite lost and unprepared. Worse still.. as a 4 yr old boy, he kept crying and holding on to his mommy..

I tried to communicate with this flustered boy who paid no attention to me... The mother tried to coax him by siting in the lesson together. Finally he sat down on the chair and stopped crying. Without any materials I just had to come up with something right?! I taught him the simple 5-finger position on the piano.. he just didnt want to cooperate... All the time he just wanted his mother to hold his hand while he learns... Either he is shy or scared... Which i dun blame him.. he is just a child ma.. But how can i teach if he doesnt wana learn?!?!

Anyway this goes on for 20 minutes while i tried different ways to make him listen to me.. He kept crying and wanting his mother.. I GIVE UP! seriously this is going no where.. Heng onli half hour lesson... Veri soon it was over..

But guess wad.. The next week... i got a complain from the parent.. Boss told me that the parent complained about my non-pro-active teaching and that she had to prompt me several times how to teach her son... ehh your son dun wana learn.. keep holding on to you plus wadever i say he also dowan listen.. I not pro active? Your son is the problem not me can... I tried to keep my cool.. Parents are always right (just like customers are always right).. they are the money-payers.. we cant say they are wrong.. So i just explained to my boss the situation..  i had no materials blabla bla.. Anyway i kena complain means no good for the school already.. i just had to accept the fact that ya.. it is my fault..

For those who know the story already... this is the follow up:

The weeks after that week i kena complain... i've learnt that this student likes colouring.. He was more open to me after i said i will reward him with lolipop.. ya.. but that was all he wanted.. zz.. i told him if he did wad i taught him he would be rewarded.. but he didnt wana do wad he was told and kept hugging his mommy... Anyway it was an improvement cos he did learn the notes from C to B.. Anyway boss told me that i had to add time to her lesson cos the last week lesson started late..

Today was his third lesson and I asked the mother about the time adding.. cos seriously half an hour was too much for the boy to take and I cant add time as promised. I also apologized about the first week explaining that the late coming of the person-in-charge plus my unpreparedness of what to do in situations like this. I did that firstly was to clear any misunderstandings between us as well as to ask wad actually was she unhappy about with me.. I didnt ask directly though... 

Anyway she told me that she complain to the school cos she felt that it was unfair to me if she had come directly to me.. She didnt reali say anything abt my teaching.. mayb she didnt wana make things worse.. or that there was improvement in the lesson between me and her son therefore she didnt wana bring up old events. Either way at least I cleared things up better with the parent.. hopefully the parent gives positive feedback this time round cos my boss keeps reminding me that i shld be more interactive bla bla bla... zzzZzz

Work sux... but wad to do when parents dont give u money..

Taking One Step Back  

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=)Princess(=


I see my life as a mess
Dunno how u guys see it though
Am I......
Too Naive?
Too lazy?
Too skinny?
Fake?
Not wad u think when u reali get to know me?
Just a friend?
A closer friend maybe?
Emo?

Doesnt reali matter though... cos i know i'm in a mess and i'm not happy..

Sometimes i go to school and pretend to be happy although i'm not..
School life is suppose to fun.. 
Why shld I let my bad mood affect those around me..

A good fren would know when something is wrong even when i fake it right?

I'm so busy with school work and real work..
So not used to these kinda hectic lifestyle..
Help!

No one can help me also.. In the end.. when u sit for a test or find a job or when problem arises, its all up to yourself.. U can only ask for advice and support.. 

P.S. Juan if u are reading this.. I'm so sorry we haven talked for so long!!!!!!! So busy to call.. Haix.. Dunno when can meet up.. boo.. sads!